I just want to start with something I wrote in the old one after I got back from a vacation. I reread it recently and I realized I needed to hear it again. So here goes.
(July 9th, 2007)
"So basically I was thinking about how sometimes you just feel like God is trying to tell you something, or make you understand something. I always see symbols of God in my life, or just different ways to understand God's love. So I'm going to try to update this when things make sense.
Something that's been on my mind for a while recently is the feeling of standing beside an ocean. Beside an immense body of water. Think about it. If no one knew exactly where you were, and the area around the ocean was completely desolate, no one would even know you existed. How would they ever find you? The ocean is just SO huge, and I am so small. That's how I've been feeling lately, small. What can I, one individual person, possibly do to change the world?
So one might wonder why I would want to go to a place where I feel completely alone. Isn't that a horrible feeling? It's the opposite - I love it. I rarely feel more at peace than I do when I am sitting by an ocean (or even a lake), perfectly alone. I was sitting on the balcony of the condo I stayed in in Florida and I realized something. Better yet, God told me something, whispered it in the breeze of the ocean.It's really hard for me to explain because I normally really struggle with hearing God's voice in my life. I never know who is really talking, Him to me, or me to myself. But this I know was God. And here is what I got from it.
It doesn't matter to God how small you are, He still loves you. Completely. The God who made the oceans so wide and breathed life into billions of people, loves me and wants to be a part of my life. This seems so simple, but it's an image that really speaks volumes to me. I'm am completely miniscule, standing by the ocean makes me realize that. But it's a beautiful feeling.
At that very moment, when nearly all of the billions of other people in the world, had no idea where I was or even that I existed, God loved me just the same. I am literally a speck among grains of sand, but God still holds me in his arms and is completely in love with me. How beautiful.
With all of the trouble I have with hearing God's voice in my life, God tells me that I still matter. I may only be one person, but I am a creation of God and he knows me completely.
Being one person what can I do? I can do great things. I can do small things that turn into huge things. As long as I do them with love. Caring about one person and them as an individual is just as valuable as helping many. But why stop there? I believe that God challenges you to challenge yourself. If you can love one person, that is amazing. But you shouldn't be content there. Keep loving. Keep loving even when it is most difficult. Believe me, I'll be there struggling with you - it's not always easy to love. But if God can love you, one of billions, and be with you every step of the way, don't you owe it to Him to at least try?
And if you ever want to sit by the ocean with me, know that I am always there. Sometimes it is nice to be humbled enough to know that the world doesn't have to revolve around you for God to love you completely."
Something that's been on my mind for a while recently is the feeling of standing beside an ocean. Beside an immense body of water. Think about it. If no one knew exactly where you were, and the area around the ocean was completely desolate, no one would even know you existed. How would they ever find you? The ocean is just SO huge, and I am so small. That's how I've been feeling lately, small. What can I, one individual person, possibly do to change the world?
So one might wonder why I would want to go to a place where I feel completely alone. Isn't that a horrible feeling? It's the opposite - I love it. I rarely feel more at peace than I do when I am sitting by an ocean (or even a lake), perfectly alone. I was sitting on the balcony of the condo I stayed in in Florida and I realized something. Better yet, God told me something, whispered it in the breeze of the ocean.It's really hard for me to explain because I normally really struggle with hearing God's voice in my life. I never know who is really talking, Him to me, or me to myself. But this I know was God. And here is what I got from it.
It doesn't matter to God how small you are, He still loves you. Completely. The God who made the oceans so wide and breathed life into billions of people, loves me and wants to be a part of my life. This seems so simple, but it's an image that really speaks volumes to me. I'm am completely miniscule, standing by the ocean makes me realize that. But it's a beautiful feeling.
At that very moment, when nearly all of the billions of other people in the world, had no idea where I was or even that I existed, God loved me just the same. I am literally a speck among grains of sand, but God still holds me in his arms and is completely in love with me. How beautiful.
With all of the trouble I have with hearing God's voice in my life, God tells me that I still matter. I may only be one person, but I am a creation of God and he knows me completely.
Being one person what can I do? I can do great things. I can do small things that turn into huge things. As long as I do them with love. Caring about one person and them as an individual is just as valuable as helping many. But why stop there? I believe that God challenges you to challenge yourself. If you can love one person, that is amazing. But you shouldn't be content there. Keep loving. Keep loving even when it is most difficult. Believe me, I'll be there struggling with you - it's not always easy to love. But if God can love you, one of billions, and be with you every step of the way, don't you owe it to Him to at least try?
And if you ever want to sit by the ocean with me, know that I am always there. Sometimes it is nice to be humbled enough to know that the world doesn't have to revolve around you for God to love you completely."
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