Went to look at 2 apartments with mother. Easton and Stoughton. Apparently she's in love with the Stoughton one. So, all in all, I'm going to look for the best in things. I have a home, I will have a home (shelter, a place to sleep). My bedroom is decent sized. It's a chance to redecorate, since my current room has left over stuff from middle school (a multitude of ducks, old furniture, etc.). Maybe this is what my mother and I need to get along better.
In reality, I just want a place of my own.
Speaking of things of my own.
Life night was good, unexpected surprise at the end. Fun conversation. I always think it's funny when God allows things that you want/can't have presently to be dangled in front of your face. I know He's not being malicious, and there's a point to it. But it's SO frustrating. Like, I really want to hear about the other girl you're dating, for sure. And I love to hear that the one thing she lacks, I could fulfill.
Reminds me of something that came to me in prayer on the day retreat. Kind of like God saying, "You want a true love, want to be with a Catholic man, someone who has the same faith as you, are you surprised that it's taking a long time to find one?" If I want a specific kind of relationship, I guess I have to be realistic and know that realistically the kind of partner I desire is few and far between. Like God is assuring me, "He's worth the wait, believe me." But when?
It frustrates me that this is such a majority of what I can focus on in my scripture reading. How does said scripture verse relate to what I'm thinking about. Like I'm telling God what I want to talk about, instead of letting him reveal things to me that HE wants to mention.
More to come. I have to work early tomorrow.
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